Backstory
posted on June 12, 2012 – Some of you may have read my story about being very young with a hearing problem and how it was resolved. Like most people I continued on my way with the unexpected mishaps that seem to make up life for each of us. I’d like to share them with you. Today I’ll sum up my mid-twenties.
Welcome to the mid-twenties, well isn’t life just a bed of roses. Not!
At twenty five I was diagnosed with Crohn’s Disease. I’d lived with the pain for years. Just kept getting worse. Finally I had major surgery where part of my small intestine was removed. Just prior to that I wasn’t able to keep the baby I had been carrying, just prior to that I became a single mom responsible for my 1 ½ year old baby girl and my 5 year old son. After the surgery I had no as in NO control over my bowels without taking daily doses of nasty pharmaceuticals. I was told that would always be the case. I had no job and to be honest very little outside support. My sisters were awesome, however.
I think at one point I weighed 92 pounds. And there were physical complications for years. But I didn’t give up or in. I overcame when I was told I couldn’t do it. I don’t take any more of those nasty drugs. I control things. Oh and I have been free of Crohns for a long time. There are lots more of my ‘life’s learning adventures’ of how I got from there to here, for more read on, or wait until another visit!
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posted on July 30, 2012….continuing on:
When I was 29 years old I lived in Florida. My children are grown up now so this was some time ago. The exact location isn’t important, but it was in one of the larger cities in that state. It was late afternoon. I had been visiting a friend. My little ones were spending the night elsewhere so my evening was free to enjoy.
As I left my friend’s home and was walking towards my car, two men in a vehicle driving slowly down the street pulled up beside me. The one on the passenger side of the window rolled down his window and asked for directions. He was opening his door as he did so, but I felt no reason for alarm.
I was not prepared for what happened next. His right arm came around in a fist and connected with my left cheek. I wasn’t knocked out but everything went fuzzy. There was a taste like that of sawdust in my mouth. I was grabbed and taken to some place nearby. The next period of time was anyone’s, but most specially a woman’s, worst nightmare come true. I was beaten, verbally degraded and repeatedly raped. It seemed to go on and on.
I reached a point where I was afraid I wouldn’t leave there alive. In fact through the blur of pain of which I was becoming numb, I was certain of it. I began to pray but I did feel it was hopeless. I would not see my children grow up or be there for them. It was all I could think of.
There came a point when I heard one of them say he was going to get more beer. I heard the door close. The other was semi-passed out by then from having so much to drink. A short while later I became aware that it was quiet, quiet except for a snoring guttural sound coming from the one still there.
I think one of the bravest things I’ve ever done I did that night when I slowly got up from where I lay, grabbing the small pile of my discarded clothing, and moved quietly towards the door. I made it outside, I dressed quickly. It was dark and very late at night. I didn’t know the time or where I was. I could see from some of the street lights that I was in a rundown neighborhood. I began to run and run and run and finally when I could run no more I walked.
I hurt. I hurt bad, but I was alive, I. Was. Alive. With each passing step I knew I was going to make it. I was sure 
of it. It was then, with tears of joy from being alive streaming down by face, I began thanking God for blessing me with another day. And it was then that the sun began to rise. I had been going through my ordeal for most of the night.
As the sun rose and I limped to get help, I continued to cry. I cried for the love of my children, for the love of my life, and mostly for the love of my God. Yes I truly do love the sunshine!
posted on August 15th, 2012 …continuing on
Hello again, it took awhile for me to be really okay again after the last experience, I worked with organizations that helped people who had gone through similar things as I. Helping others helped me heal myself.
In my early thirties I moved back from Florida to my home state of Oregon.
I had picked up certain work skills in the course of my twenties, painting portraits for a living (while recovering from the Crohn’s surgery) and then managing a few restaurants. I continued doing similar things after I moved back to Oregon. I was good at management but it wasn’t rewarding and I discovered I had more pleasure in showing others with talent how to paint and market a portrait than in doing portraits myself.
And then an odd twist happened to my small portrait business. Many of the artists that I had been working with were graphic designers. It was what they did to make a living. They wanted to be artists but had not had much success in selling their art or their portraits. These same artists asked me to get them graphic design jobs, so I went looking and pretty soon my business changed from a portrait business to a advertising and marketing business (so I could keep my artist friends in funds).
Now I’m in my mid-thirties with a small business that had morphed into something different from what it was. I changed the name and tried to catch up on what I didn’t know about marketing (almost everything!), I took classes and read a lot of marketing and advertising books purchased from Portland State University. It was a challenge, because I was also raising my children and trying to keep my business afloat.
When I learn something I feel this need to pass it on. So within a year I was giving “marketing” basics” workshops through Portland’s Small Business Association to young start-up businesses. The interesting thing here was that half the people who attended weren’t small businesses, they were mid-size companies that had expanding rapidly but were having trouble keeping up with the change. And they themselves had forgotten some of the basics. So while I was busy giving workshops I was creating more clients at the same time, surprised me, but I was learning as I went along. This completes the latest update in my backstory about how I got from there to here! More later, for those who are interested!
Mitzie Mee
May 20, 2013 at 6:22 am
Hi Penny! Why haven’t I read this before? I had no idea you’ve been through such a rough time! Your courage, strength and will to get through is amazing and I really admire you.
I aslo love the way you write, I hope to see your life story as a novel someday:)
Penny L Howe
May 20, 2013 at 11:14 am
Thank you Mitzie. I doubt whether anyone would believe even half of what I’ve lived through. But my experiences in life (the good and the bad) have shaped me into the woman I am today. Stronger for the adventures and wiser with a better understanding of people and life. These are the rewards from the downside of my life’s learning experiences, my friend!
My Tropical Home
February 7, 2013 at 8:02 am
Penny: Big Warm Hug from across the miles…you’re as old as my mum, and I mean that as a compliment
I hope when I’m your age I’ll be able to share my backstories, too. I’m still letting time take care of it for now.
pennycoho
February 7, 2013 at 8:16 am
It did take time and some serious effort but I made it through. Since then I tend to be a very active sort of person, kayaking etc and I have since my earlier years taken care of me first (it’s a lesson every woman should learn because we are the nourishers in life), I guess I do it right because most people that I meet think I’m in my 40′s. Personally I think it has a lot to do with attitude. I take nothing for granted and I am grateful for each day. This year I will be travelling quite a bit and staying busy with my blog (I have a publisher who has been speaking with me on some things, we’ll see on that one. Meantime, you take care of you ~ don’t forget how important you are in the whole scheme of things! Penny,
xx
My Tropical Home
February 7, 2013 at 8:25 am
Thank you Penny, that comes from my heart. I wish you all the best in your next adventure(s)
xx
pennycoho
February 7, 2013 at 9:43 am
You also, I’m coming to visit you now,
Ralph
January 24, 2013 at 9:54 am
A really BIG HUG Penny {{{{{{HUG}}}}}} Your ordeal has really upset me
xox
pennycoho
January 24, 2013 at 10:06 am
Things happen in life Ralph, then it was pretty bad, but time heals much and we go on. I wish things hadn’t happened in my life but I am stronger for it and I am a survivor in life and very grateful to still be here. Be comforted by the peace I feel now Ralph. It allows me to be there for those I love and others my friend, much affection to you this day, Penny
xx
Ralph
January 24, 2013 at 10:13 am
Then I am happy for you dear Penny
But I am still shocked at what you went through. You must be a very strong woman. Ralph xox
pennycoho
January 24, 2013 at 4:08 pm
You know it’s a funny (not ha, ha funny, but interesting funny) thing. In the moment it was just about survival and the very real fear that my life was over (what was happening physically and verbally faded after a bit into this place the mind goes – a kind of numbness re: the pain, and all I could think of was not being there for my little ones). I think the strength of will came from the need of a mother to be there, so I did what I could do to survive.
Later of course it was an experience that (apart from some unwanted memories) I understood had shaped me and did in fact make me stronger, and so it is true in each of my life experiences, shaping me into who I am today. I recognize that each person has that choice to make when adversity happens: what they will emotionally make of it. Something to strength them or something to weaken them. And I think you know a little about that subject yourself Ralph my friend, again my thanks for your caring words, so very appreciated by me!
Ralph
January 24, 2013 at 4:45 pm
When I read other blogs I can usually get a feel of what that person is and what is said. I thought I knew you Penny until you threw this curve ball. “Out” says the umpire.
I am taking a really long time to write this as I am having to step back and think of what to say or should I stop. I want to say something but it’s more of a feeling than words. It’s a feeling of respect for your bravery at the time and for your right to stand up as a victim and say to the world that this happened to me and over time I became stronger because of it. I have taken about half an hour to this point. I am honoured to know you as a far away friend Penny and I hope it may continue. Ralph xox
pennycoho
January 24, 2013 at 5:36 pm
Thank you Ralph, I think you and I will be friends for a long time to come, and I for one look forward to our friendship!
tchistorygal
January 8, 2013 at 8:58 pm
It’s hard to know what to comment, Penny. I am almost as old as you are, and have lived through my share of things, but I don’t think anything can compare to being brutally raped. I have cheated rape a several times, and have taken it for granted almost. Reading your backstory is sobering to say the least. I’m just sitting here at my desk wanting to reach out and say something inspiring and instead feeling small and self-absorbed. I’m glad you shared, although it was hard -even after many years. I know you have touched me, and that you will continue to touch those who have read your words. I am very familiar with where you live. My first husband, born in Mt. Vernon, lived in Seattle, and worked in Bremerton before we married. We used to ride the ferry as entertainment.
pennycoho
January 9, 2013 at 3:26 pm
Thank you. I truly believe sharing an experience can help others weather their own internal storms, that is hurtful memories. And if I can make a positive difference than I am well served indeed, Gee we were almost neighbors for awhile!
tchistorygal
January 9, 2013 at 4:51 pm
Yes, if you were there in the 70s. My husband and I married in 1974, and lived in Portland until 1976, then moved to Cottage Grove, OR. In 1982 we moved to Colorado Springs so he could go to Nazarene Bible College, then moved to CA where he pastored for 4 years before he passed away. The short story of my first marriage!!! I’ve lived in CA ever since.
Tina J.S
January 8, 2013 at 6:13 am
What a story you got! You’re strong Penny
Keep on going!
pennycoho
January 9, 2013 at 2:46 pm
That’s what I do best, keep on keeping on Tina!
tiramit
December 7, 2012 at 9:33 pm
I’m amazed. I think you must really know something about the Buddhist concept of Dukkha (suffering) not just because you have suffered all kinds of pain and discomfort but also because, as a result, you’ve developed a discerning ‘eye’ on the hardships of life, joys and sorrows. Thanks for posting. It’s a privilege to meet you.
pennycoho
December 7, 2012 at 11:14 pm
I have just a very basic understanding of the concept of Dukkha. In fact I’ve never before been so aware of how little I really do know about most things. Yes my life has been an interesting one, I’ve had so many experiences (not all mentioned here) that somewhere along my journey through life, a happening, or awareness occurred inside of me and I seemed to just “know” or at least understand life(s) and it’s nature. But not what to do with it! I am working on that one now.
It is an honor to meet you also, please keep up your excellent work my friend, thank you, Penny
tiramit
December 8, 2012 at 1:12 am
Thanks for your nice reply. I recognise something here about to ‘just know” and that’s it – being consciously aware of existence. Everything else about “what to do with it” just kinda falls into place after that. Somebody wise said: “…the human experience is the experience of knowing.” It’s enough to be going on with.
I’m going to have a look around your pages and look forward to new posts too
pennycoho
December 8, 2012 at 11:50 am
Thank you tiramit. I find I’m on a most interesting learning curve and it isn’t until someone else responds to words I have written that I begin to see things a little clearer for myself.
catnipoflife
November 4, 2012 at 10:48 am
Penny, as many times as I have visited your site, I have missed this page. Thank you for sharing such an insightful story about your life. Yes, indeed it has been colorful but even the bad times seem to have added even a deeper definitive color. So glad our lives have touched even if it is only in the virtual world [for now anyway, who knows what the future may hold:>)].My husband and I lived 30 years in Panama City Beach, FL. Raised four kids but the time came we needed to get out of FL. Are you still in Oregon today? Going West is one of our dream vacations. One day. . .
pennycoho
November 4, 2012 at 10:52 am
I live in the state of Washington right now Sharla, my life’s adventures continue on. The sad, the difficult and the good. However, I will be travelling soon, I apologize for not knowing also – where precisely do you live? I will be visiting a few states in the spring of next year!
catnipoflife
November 4, 2012 at 10:56 am
I have a writer friend that lives in Bremerton, WA. Anywhere near you? I live in the southeastern most corner of Georgia, only five miles from the FL line. We lived in Panama City Beach, FL for almost 30 years but returned to home roots about a year and a half ago. It is a small rural town, Donalsonville, but we ARE on the map:>)
pennycoho
November 4, 2012 at 11:11 am
Glad to know you’re on the map, silly you! Yes about 30-45 minutes as the crow flys from Bremerton. Did you watch the video of America I posted this morning, way cool! You’ll love it. Interestingly it was a young Englishman living in this country that brought it to my attention. Sigh, what we take for granted in this country sometimes!
anirtakms
September 26, 2012 at 1:53 am
Wow- I wanted to stop by and say thank you for sharing that intimate story. You are truly-beautiful, talented, and a survivor. I would say, we have some things in common-mostly Art and the love of making it. Yours is one of the first blogs I followed -and still do! I’ve only been here a month and not real sure what I’m doing yet. I think the story I really came to tell will be-on a private blog. Not sure yet. Anyhow, thanks for just, being, writing, making and inspiring.
pennycoho
September 26, 2012 at 3:12 pm
Thank you very much. I find Artists are the best to be around. Very real! Thank you also for following me, I do appreciate it very much. The story you tell when you decide to tell it should always be somewhat in your comfort zone. I know you understand what I’m saying. It should be a release of inner held emotions that you’ve decided to free yourself of. Not the memories (they are always there) but the memories do tend to go to a more restful spot in your mind, still vivid with recollection, but also an understanding of it being a life experience that hasn’t distroyed just changed who you are. I wish you much success (you’re strong and talented it will happen), and I will continue to … well be who I am, sending much love your way ~ Penny
anirtakms
September 27, 2012 at 3:26 pm
Thank you so much- I haven’t looked into artist communities much beyond a G+ experience. Are there groups that you know of here within wordpress?
An Artist/writer group would be great!
pennycoho
September 27, 2012 at 3:46 pm
Yes, give me a few on this one, I didn’t much sleep last night so I’m a little slow on the uptake right now. But I have a couple in mind will get back to you with those!
pennycoho
September 27, 2012 at 6:40 pm
Hi again, is there any particular style or type of artist/writing group that you’d be more comfortable with, you know that if you could you would ‘hang with’ for inspiration?
anirtakms
September 27, 2012 at 11:11 pm
As I look at it, I can’t say I could discriminate off the bat.. I pretty much respect those who are willing to put themselves out there. Writing, painting etc… Of course, I’m really getting started with all this, as I said I’m a late in the day self-proclaimed artist. So I need advice-one on one would be great..I don’t know if that’s available or not.. Just bouncing ideas around could be cool..I loved painting in a group at a workshop-but cant go there at the moment. Writing- painting-as long as people have a sense of humor.. Most important..!
pennycoho
September 27, 2012 at 11:32 pm
Okay, more questions, we’re going t back up a little. When you started your blog what was your main purpose? and after you answer that one, what do you want to accomplish with your art and writing? I’ll be here for a little while so can answer if you’re there right now!
anirtakms
September 29, 2012 at 12:30 am
Got to you a little late. Let’s see I began my blog, as a form of expression. I like to right and I had a lot to let go of. A “journal” in a way. Also I’ve been looking for a place for some of my art. Not to promote, (yet-if that comes). I am “between” residences. Everything I own, is either gone, or in storage that is not easy to get to. I want a lot of things, but getting back to painting again would be a blessing. And that sounds mild. So where to go with art and writing, I really do not know. I do know that even writing the blog and using my images, from my paintings, in the blog inspired me again. So that’s it for now..Thank you again. For everything.
pennycoho
September 29, 2012 at 12:45 am
Stay in touch, I know there’s the right group out there to connect with for you. Keep blogging as you can, and keep being inspired you can do this! Okay?
anirtakms
September 29, 2012 at 5:42 am
OK..I wanted to tell you more..It’s just quite a bit to put in a comment form so Thank you!!
pennycoho
September 29, 2012 at 8:07 am
email me I’ll listen!
anirtakms
September 29, 2012 at 10:23 am
will do!
mysocalledDutchlife
September 16, 2012 at 1:36 pm
What an inspirational lady! So glad you found my blog and led me here.
pennycoho
September 16, 2012 at 2:20 pm
My pleasure, I think your blog is great and I’ll be returning to explore there! Penny
Mondrak
September 7, 2012 at 1:52 pm
It must be difficult for you reliving some of these times. I know the good times outweigh the bad, but it must be difficult. You are very brave for this.
I am impressed. With what you had achieved by your thirties
pennycoho
September 7, 2012 at 2:07 pm
thanks, I’m getting to share some of the very creative and positve and funny things that were going on then also. Mondrak, I had some really bad things happen to me but I passionately love life! So some times (and it does take time) you just keep going and living and loving!
Mondrak
September 7, 2012 at 2:53 pm
You have had some glorious times. I do enjoy reading this, I am sorry for the bad parts though.
pennycoho
September 7, 2012 at 3:43 pm
Wait til you read about my time as a photographer for a circus, or the time i almost was arrested by the President’s body guard (when i shook his hand) they thought I had something in my hand – a former president now) I have had a colorful life!
But then life is for the living, always. 
Mondrak
September 7, 2012 at 5:00 pm
Oh I can’t wait now
pennycoho
September 7, 2012 at 5:04 pm
Yeah, good stuff, funny too!
LuAnn
September 6, 2012 at 7:42 am
This blogging community is a blessing but can consume your day as well so often I don’t take the time I would like to go back and read more about the person behind the keyboard. I thought I knew a little about you and what beauty you possess, but I was woefully mistaken until I took the time this morning to read your story. You, dear woman, are so courageous and an example to us all to never give up, to choose life! Thank you for the courage to share and thank you for giving me a nudge in that direction. My post a few days ago entitled “Did You Know…?” was a liberating step for me and I owe it all to you. You are a blessing Penny.
pennycoho
September 6, 2012 at 9:56 am
Thank you LuAnn, Some in life – ‘experience’ – life very upclose and personal, I have certainly had my share of those and I know it shaped me. I do know if it wasn’t out of extreme love of my (at that time) little ones and being a single parent I would not have survived some of those experiences. But I did, and I have had some great funny and fun experiences in my past also that I will be sharing too, Life is full of riches to be explored LuAnn, now I’m headed (long overdue – hectic days here in real time) to your place to read your words!
LuAnn
September 6, 2012 at 10:16 am
The more I read your posts the more layers I discover you have. You are one amazing woman my friend, a beautiful spirit who I am thankful has touched my life. Have a glorious day!
pennycoho
September 6, 2012 at 10:17 am
And you also my friend, our weather is beautiful right now, enjoy!
Cat Forsley
August 25, 2012 at 11:15 am
What a brave story!!!!!!!!!!
and it continues – doesn’t it –
Best part – You are alive alive alive
much love and nice to meet you
Cat
pennycoho
August 25, 2012 at 11:45 am
Thank you Cat you summed it up perfectly. Each of us is on an adventure (like indiana jones – the guy does get beaten up a lot in his movies lol) so there is bad and things that happen to each of us. Its the getting back up that counts. I am alive and loving it. Thanks for the visit and your wonderful caring words, so very much appreciated, Cat, sending loving thoughts your way, Penny
Chris
August 21, 2012 at 4:46 am
You are a truly inspiring women,to come out of all you have been through and make it to the other side and be successful is amazing, thank you for being so open and I’m looking forward to reading the rest of your story.
pennycoho
August 21, 2012 at 9:39 am
Thanks Chris I do appreciate your caring words. There have been times in life when I felt I wasn’t having a learning curve but more like a learning spiral, just kept coming and coming…
Luckily for me, it seems I’ve been fortunate enough to always get back up (although sometimes it has taken a little while to do this.) Your poem in your post today is beautiful in the writing of, and meaningful as well. Thank you so much for visiting, sending warmth thoughts and hugs your way my new friend, xxx Penny
maggiemyklebust
August 19, 2012 at 11:36 pm
Years ago I suffered through a bout of Ulcerous Colitis, so I could definitely feel your pain. I have been through some very difficult (and Amazing) times. I wrote a book about it all and its doing quite well considering I have a very ‘small’ publisher. I think writing a book is something you should definitely consider. You certainly have a story and you’re a good writer.
Mondrak
August 19, 2012 at 4:54 pm
I had no idea you had such a horrific time. You couldn’t tell with the way you come across.
Sorry for a personal question, don’t answer if you don’t want to. With the operation, did you have a illeostomy or something similar?
pennycoho
August 19, 2012 at 5:00 pm
I was one of the lucky ones. They removed just two feet of the ileum. The section of intestine that had closed itself off. So while going to the bathroom was highly creative (saying this in a nice way) for several years, There was no need for a bag or anything. All body parts still function. Mine just functions way faster than most people.
Paula
August 16, 2012 at 12:55 am
The like I left is not for the ordeal you had to go through
, it is for your courage, faith and strength and for finding a way to share it with us. A tight hug!
pennycoho
August 16, 2012 at 8:02 am
Thank you Paula. I appreciate you so much.Thank you!
Paula
August 16, 2012 at 8:06 am
It was painful to read, I have been in danger of that kind in my life and I could only have a preview of your terror… you are brave and the reason you overcome it is because you looked ahead and not back…. Always focus on what good is to come.. But you know that, you did that. I am so sorry for all the ugly things you had to go through.
pennycoho
August 16, 2012 at 9:38 am
There is both in life I think, one always has a choice (although some are much harder than others when it’s personal) to learn and grow or not. But I think the difference in what you decide does shape what you will do next. Thank you Paula.
Paula
August 16, 2012 at 9:57 am
There is nothing to thank. I now want to ask you a silly question, but you don’t have to reply if you don’t want to… I was wondering how old you are now… It is silly of me I know,.. next I will be asking you your astrological sign
pennycoho
August 16, 2012 at 10:07 am
I’ve been patiently waiting for that one to come up since I revealed the full story of my daughter and wished my son a happy birthday. Anyone could start adding up the years and probably come close. I’m happy to share. I am 65. My pictures are not retouched in anyway and I have had no surgery (cosmetically speakig of any kind. I have always looked young, I was carded (for being old enough to drink when I was 42. I smile when people ask me how I’ve managed to stay youthful and say “I’ve had an easy life.
Yeah, I know pretty ironic isn’t it! But I do have some healthy routines I follow and I am a huge believer in attitude (including age) so there you have it my dear friend, (I get really irritated, by the way, when my younger sister complains about her body’s aches and pains because of her “age”. I think it’s equal parts of making the effort to take care of yourself mentally and physically and your attitudel 
Paula
August 16, 2012 at 10:13 am
I thought you were 48
Thank you for sharing…now your astrological sign 
pennycoho
August 16, 2012 at 10:17 am
Yup most people put me around that age, it used to bother me when I was younger as it was hard to be taken seriously, now of course it works in my favor. Although I have to prove my age to get senior discounts. lol. should be obvious (my sign) at least according to those who follow such things. I’m an aquarius!
Paula
August 16, 2012 at 11:29 am
Why do you think it should be obvious? What is your date? I am aquarius too, and people usually give me ten years less of my age… do you think it is an aquarius thing? Judging from some I saw, I don’t think so
pennycoho
August 16, 2012 at 12:09 pm
Astrology, as in “the study and practice of” never interested me so I don’t know very much about it. Nice to think that though. My great Aunt Tina lived to be 102 but I don’t her ‘sign’!
I’m thinking a combo of genetic proclivity and mindset most probably! 
laurabennet
August 14, 2012 at 9:10 pm
Thank you for checking out my blog. I hope it will be encouraging to you. You have made it through some horrendous situations, and I thank you for sharing. Being vulnerable about your life gives others a place to heal in theirs. Well done. May God continue to bless you with healing and happiness.
pennycoho
August 14, 2012 at 9:12 pm
Thank you laura for your visit but most especially for your kind and caring words and blessings.
Michelle
August 12, 2012 at 10:56 pm
You have an amazing story, and you are so brave to write about it. I have my own health issues, and I write my blog on that. What I don’t write about is the fact that I have been sexually assaulted 5 times. The last wound is still healing, or maybe all five! They are all connected in a way. But I applaud you for being so open and writing about such a taboo subject.
pennycoho
August 12, 2012 at 11:06 pm
Thank you Michelle, Like you I have had a few other sexual assaults in my life. This one was very brutal. I think many women have. They just don’t talk about them. To me what is important in my life is that I have amazingly survived (through a lot of adversity only some of which I’ve spoken of) and there was a purpose. I wake up each day happy to know there is another day and the need to make a positive difference in as many lives as I can. If anything I write helps just one other person than I am well satisfied. You are on your own journey through life. Be brave. It can really be tough, but I think you’ve got what it takes to weather the storm. Thank you for visiting my blog. I appreciate it very much. Take care of you, I’ll keep visiting too, Penny
victoriaaphotography
August 7, 2012 at 8:29 pm
Thankyou for visiting my PhotoBlog. Just dropping in to read about you. Crohn’s is a terrible disease and I’m glad you’ve found recovery & healing (was tested for Crohn’s myself back in early 2004, but that’s another story).
I love your writing and just wanted to thank you for sharing your story, including the horrific night in your life which is best forgotten and left in the past. How does one recover from such violence? I don’t know, but I’m so very glad you did. It must have been a great blessing to do so.
Sending you big cyber hugs and good wishes for a beautiful, calm and peaceful future. Looking forward to reading more about your thoughts on Life and Living the best you can (despite the past).
Vicki
pennycoho
August 7, 2012 at 8:53 pm
I’ve discovered in my life’s adventures that both good and bad things happen. Some are a little bit harder to get over than others. I found that by helping out those with similar life experiences helped me heal myself. The past is firmly there, as it should be. My future, a blessed day at a time. Thank you for your warm and caring comments they are very much appreciated.
Stefanie Neumann
August 6, 2012 at 9:33 am
Hej Penny,
I just read the freshly added second part of this page. I am glad that you were able to transform this experience into strength and even more love for yourself. Thank you for sharing about it and therefore giving inspiration to others.
Much love!
pennycoho
August 6, 2012 at 10:10 am
Thanks Stefanie I do appreciate you and your words of kindness. I have learned over the years (mostly through experience) that the best way to move forward after a life altering event is to reach out to others. First for help and then to give back in return. You can not care ‘fully’ if you don’t share! My own personal motto. Again thank you for both caring and sharing. I am so glad to have met you my dear friend!
Stefanie Neumann
August 6, 2012 at 10:15 am
I agree, Penny – to reach out and connect into both directions is an important key for a truly “fulfilled” life.
I am glad that we met, as well!
pennycoho
August 6, 2012 at 11:40 am
another journey
August 6, 2012 at 4:03 am
Oh God! It sends chills down my spine to even imagine what you went through.
You are amazingly brave and strong. Lord bless you with arms full of happiness.
pennycoho
August 6, 2012 at 9:57 am
Thank you for your blessing and caring words. It has been quite a while since this occurred but some memories never leave. I began to make peace with myself when I became involved with a rape crisis organization and was involved in helping other victims. To my horror I discovered that I was a rare situation. Most of the victims know their attacker, in fact the majority are members of their family. Working with others to cope and understand put me on my own road towards healing. Thank you for caring! Sweet and gentle thoughts to you!
another journey
August 6, 2012 at 10:02 am
Now that you have read about me, i must say reading your story made me feel silly about myself and my pain. I thank almighty for every nice moment he gives me. I will cherish it all the more now. thank you for opening up a whole new perspective.
pennycoho
August 6, 2012 at 10:13 am
Each of us travels our own journey but I love the fact that there’s lots of room for others on the road we travel when we share our life’s experiences with each other. You are so very welcome!
globalunison
August 3, 2012 at 3:43 pm
You are such an inspiration for many to keep struggling against the odds of life and one day the achievement will astound you as it will be the present of your patience! Your blog is a true source of learning! Have a good evening.
Blessings,
-Naima.
metan
July 31, 2012 at 6:02 pm
Your positive attitude, against all odds, is an inspiration.
pennycoho
July 31, 2012 at 6:43 pm
Thank you.
Robyn Lee
July 30, 2012 at 9:07 pm
Oh Penny – tears here for what you endured that day…you poor thing~ how terrifying. I was held up when I was 21 training for my new job in marketing for Eastern Airlines ~ in Miami Florida. 2 men in a car – very similar – but they pointed the gun right at me and asked for my purse. I am very lucky I did not get pulled into that vehicle. I cannot imagine the horror you suffered from this hideous ugly crime committed against your poor sweet self. I hope you have mended and healed — and I thank God you were smart and brave enough to escape. I hope they caught these monsters… Sending you compassionate hugs — and lots of sunshine… Love, Robyn ~ are you a lot less trusting with strangers since this? I tend to still talk to and trust everyone — get yelled at all the time …it’s just my nature though
Blessings Penny ~
pennycoho
July 30, 2012 at 10:02 pm
Thank you Robyn. I am healed. Trust was an issue for a long time. I’m good now. No worries there. As I think I mentioned to another caring commenter, I am a survivor and I am just so very grateful that I got to live (I really was sure I wasn’t going to that night) that every day I really make it the best I can. And the last few years have been incredibly hard for those closest to me that I cherish and love, so my hard won strength has made a difference for me and those I care so much about. Thank you so very much for caring, much much love to you my friend.
RoSy
July 30, 2012 at 7:19 pm
I just want to give you a BIG hug. Thank God you were able to find it in you to get out of there despite all that you had gone through. You are a brave soul.
pennycoho
July 30, 2012 at 7:41 pm
Thanks Rosy, hugs always welcome with pleasure. it took awhile to recovery (emotionally) but I did, in a good way. Yes it truly was terrifying. That’s why to me life is so very precious. and I am so very grateful. Every day, about every thing. Again thank you for your caring and loving words my friend!
dorysworld
July 30, 2012 at 8:00 am
You are an incredibly brave lady. To experience something so horrific and yet stay so positive about life is an amazing gift. Truly inspirational. Much love
pennycoho
July 30, 2012 at 8:20 am
Thank you so much Dory. That one took a long while to recover from! Very bumpy at first. But I can honestly say I am a survivor and I learned that when you survive hardship it does make a body stronger. I can attest to that. There have been a few more bumps in the road (I think I have a knack for finding them) But I’m in a very good place now and am happy to be meeting and interacting with people like you. You have a very good day today.
and p.s. – your posts always do brighten my day. 
anelephantcant
July 30, 2012 at 1:26 am
I am stunned. No words. But well done for moving past this ghastly experience and being able to recount it. I hope there is more sunshine in your life.
pennycoho
July 30, 2012 at 7:56 am
This one did take a while to get beyond and the road was bumpy for a bit, but I do so love life and family and friends, that’s what makes the difference. Thank you for your very thoughtful and kind words. Lots of sunshine now!:)
JT
July 28, 2012 at 1:31 pm
It seems we share common ailments. I have my own back story where Chrohn’s tried to take me out of the picture. They wanted me to do the surgery and the drug therapies, I said hold the phone I am going to do some research and get back to you. Several years later I am symptom free and have become somewhat of an advocate for others… although it surprises me that so many will not hear the message even though the messenger has been through it already. Anyway I could go on here but this is your blog not mine
pennycoho
July 28, 2012 at 2:00 pm
Yes we do. And I’m right there with you when it comes to trying to share our hard earned knowledge with others. Very frustrating for me also. Congratulations on being symptom free – me too. Isn’t it great! Thanks for stopping by, I appreciate the visit!
valeriedavies
July 25, 2012 at 12:10 am
So inspiring to read your story, and reaise how the healing the human spirit is…I am always awed at what human beings achieve no matter what the odds.And your lovely photo tells us where you’ve got to!
pennycoho
July 25, 2012 at 8:50 am
I appreciate your kind words Valerie. Yes indeed I’ve been having quite the journey. It is people like you that are there to make the difference when needed. The rest of the achievement, well that’s always up to us isn’t it? Have a great day my friend!
Robyn Lee
July 19, 2012 at 8:20 am
Penny, just stumbled on this page — not sure how I missed it? I know Crohn’s too… diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis at age 20…was very very sick in my college days (down to 80 lbs) and then into my early 20s with this… did figure out my own ways to manage eventually… but always wonder if it was a precursor for some of my ails now. It is clear here you had a very horrific encounter with the Crohn’s — I can only imagine all of what you experienced and how turbulent those years were, loosing a baby and becoming a single mom all in such a short time-span. You are obviously a survivor Penny, of the most noble sort…Admiration and Love for you friend ~ R
pennycoho
July 19, 2012 at 10:22 am
thanks Roby for your kind and generous words. We, each of us, are on a very personal journey my friend. For some there are few more “potholes” in the road than for others, Some of us keep going, other’s don’t. As you are most definitely a fellow survivor I applaud you right back! Oh good insight regarding your connecting Crohn’s with those things you’re coping with now. I had related “side” complications for years. Still do, so have extensively researched in the “all things connected to other things” perspective regarding the physical workings of our mind and body. I believe it is all connected. Keep researching.
we may figure some more of this out ourselves.:)
RoSy
July 17, 2012 at 10:14 am
Sorry you went through all of that. Glad things are better for you now. And – may they keep getting better…
pennycoho
July 17, 2012 at 10:53 am
Thanks Ro Sy. yes,everything is better,and I miss my Dad a lot.And again,thanks for seeing my post about my Dad.XOXO!!!
Tina Liu
July 16, 2012 at 3:54 pm
Amazing backstory. You persevered and lived through hard times!
pennycoho
July 16, 2012 at 9:41 am
Thank you for your loving and kind words. Much appreciated.
passionatetravellers
July 16, 2012 at 2:09 am
this is what life is all about . to love and be thankful and grateful for the present rather than cry about the past or for the future.u r a strong lady.
pennycoho
July 12, 2012 at 6:50 pm
Thanks! I’m in a great place. It’s all good. There are many who have experienced and continue to experience so much more than I. I appreciate your comments so much.
boomiebol
July 12, 2012 at 6:47 pm
Wow!!! Glad you are in a better place.