The Haibun of Life – I’m Alive.

and so it will come
new day changing existence 
           life, not so easy                   

Life hasn’t been easy, for me. I’ve dealt with just about every conceivable thing one might hope would not happen to them, during my years of existence. And I do not exaggerate. If anything I make light of what has been some very hard times.

Yes, life is hard, and I know you know this too, and have your own life experiences to back that up, and yet for all that, I love life, and my life too, with a passion that is huge. Perhaps life has given me an appreciation  for living I might not have, had it been easier. I don’t know. It doesn’t matter because it’s been my life. The one I know the best and the person I know the most about, me.

I know I’ve been incredibly lucky and blessed, repeatedly, during my years because I’m a survivor and with many years left to go in my life, I have a high confidence in my ability to persevere.  A few readers know me, and much of my life’s adventures, but it’s not really that important – the specifics, I mean.

The important thing is my understanding that I’ve been forged through life’s traumas and trials to become the person I am today. I would not wish it any different than it is. I face each day with a wonderful determination and yes, positive attitude because I choose to do so.

Regardless of any battles left to be fought, and there will be some, I’m sure, I believe I’ll be the victor there. This is life – my life, at times hard but at other times amazingly, gloriously, beautifully wonderful and I marvel that I am still alive to participate in all that may come my way. And that’s what really matters – to me.


Penny L Howe, 2015


Thanks for stopping by, have an excellent weekend, I plan to … life is good … I feel great and I hope you do too.

With affection,

~ Penny

16 thoughts on “The Haibun of Life – I’m Alive.

  1. Hi Penny: I enjoyed your essay. I agree with what you re saying. Because I would not change my life. I have been married 38 years. There were times when I found it difficult especially with 2 boys who sometimes would run me wild and also 1 who found the way to get in trouble with the system. It did not stop from being there when he needed me. I would say to my husband how come we re still married a lot of people would have thrown the towel, we did not. That boy is now 29 and made it through. He found a way to go back to school adult education when he was 18 being that he did not want to work minimum wage the rest of his life. He also took a mechanic s course. And now has job in that field. So I figure we have done something write, the other son has 2 masters degrees 1 from the State the other from Canada in physiotherapy Enjoy reading you. So long for now . Suzanne

    Date: Sat, 31 Jan 2015 08:07:07 +0000 To:

  2. AnElephantCant ever forget
    That he is fortunate to be among Penny’s friends
    So it is no surprise
    That whatever she tries
    She can achieve everything she intends

    This is a work of art, perfectly constructed, beautifully written, and a triumph of the human spirit.
    Hugs and love

  3. I believe our challenges are opportunities for growth. I am thankful that I have had mountains to climb as they have made me stronger and helped me to embrace the beauty all around me. I have no regrets.

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