I wish you could touch me now …

I am vulnerable because of loving so pure and deeply, my walls of protection cannot keep my desire for you at bay.

and so … I wish you could touch me now. Not my heart, you’ve touched me there too deeply, it’s still bruised and bleeding. But my body still hungers for you.

I need your touch …

I desire the warmth of your caress, the closeness of your body, the physical contact of … you!

I wish you could touch me now …

… even as I understand morning light will illuminate the true reality of our relationship. I know for all your tender caring words, you would be gone and my loving soul will still be bruised … for all your promises said in the moonlight hours of sensual need and gratification. I know all this.

But the longing remains so …

I still wish you could touch me now.

I’ll always have our memories of the night time to sustain me, in daylight hours spent alone, reflecting on why you said one thing and did another. Belittling my efforts instead of supporting them, and yet still I love you. And wish you to be happy.

I am pleased to hear you are where you’ve wanted to be for so long. I am happy for you. Resigned, accepting and aware of some of the hard learned lessons of life, when one exposes one’s soul during love.

But now in these evening hours I dream of you touching me again, filling my sensual needs. Even, as reality has come full circle and comprehension of the cruelty of those who love and those who take in the guise of love, is complete.

Touch me … but let it be only the physical, my bruised soul cannot bear the mockery of a pretense at true love (yours were personal and emotional needs for yourself. I don’t believe you really thought of my needs – perhaps as an afterthought), but my body does respond to your loving body. So in that, there is truth.

I wish you could touch me. I’m prepared now for tomorrow … it hurts, but I understand. With all the love in my heart that I give so freely, I was so sure someone might love me the way I loved them in return … it seems I was mistaken!

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Most definitely an unrequited love piece here. Not to worry, my next fictional piece is part two of adventure and excitement. Dry your tears and stay tuned for fun! Our fictional young lady in the piece above (p.s.- she’s the one trapped in the tunnel https://thewhyaboutthis.com/2013/07/22/alastairs-photo-fiction-the-tunnel-and-survival/ , although brokenhearted, she’s about to kick some serious a..!) More to come!

~ Penny

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Part II – Hidden from view

Taking a second look!

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When you’re raised to believe a thing it can become so deeply embedded that you can go through life convinced that what you’ve been told is true. Even when its negative, and makes you feel like you file00093066100are less than you should be.

Even when you grow up and question it, you can still be convinced that you are not worthy. That bad things should happen to you. That you deserve them.

Stop just a minute, and consider this. When we are born. We all enter this life and take our first breath as a human being. Every single one of us. A truth! No difference, no one greater than … no one lesser than.

If you are born with physical or mental disabilities these must be addressed, but you are still not lesser than or greater (as a living being) than any other person on the planet. A truth!

It is through environmental and human conditioning (by others) while you’re a child, (and for many, this can continue on through life) that determine how you feel about yourself. And here’s another big truth for you.

THERE IS NOTHING YOU NEED TO CHANGE ABOUT THE “YOU” THAT YOU ARE INSIDE! Don’t feel bad DSC047800because you’re not what other’s think you should be. Your “you” and that’s enough. You should feel good about that person, not what anyone, or any organization, or any belief system has decided you should be, that isn’t who you are.

If you want to do something for yourself to improve a skill, a talent, your education, your appearance, Do these things because you want to do them, not because you believe you “have to” to be okay as a human being! Self improvement is a wonderful thing, But you’re in charge of that too.

Each person on the planet is unique onto his or herself. They are made that way. It doesn’t matter their shape, size, color, gender, background, beliefs, cultural differences. They are all human beings – equal in that sense!

Now it’s time for that second look.

Do you realize how capable you really are? You start by believing the truth and you do that by believing in yourself. Your uniqueness. Your self-worth. No one has the right to take that from you. It belongs to you. And only you. The next step, well that’s up to you! It won’t be easy, but I believe you can do it. You’re you after all!

Click here to view Part I of Hidden From View

~ Penny

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