The Nature of Your Nature – An Ascendance of Self

July 17, 2016 / Penny L Howe / 2 Comments

Heart and Mind

You have emotions and “feel” certain things every day of your life. Depending on the experiences of that day, your feelings are happy or sad, angry or hurt, excited or bored, painful or ecstatic; but you always feel something.

In addition to everyday feelings we have our heartfelt feelings. You know the ones. They turn your life upside down and change everything, either good (which is an excellent feeling) or bad (definitely not so good)!

This then, is your life and each day you’ll be the one who either allows feelings to control actions or you learn to take a deep breath and then act in a reasonable way, wisely determining when to give your feelings “free rein” and when to hold on tightly to them until that surge of emotional upheaval passes.

Which will be in ascendance for you, your mind or your emotions?

“Wisdom ~ definitely the acquired elixir of life’s learned experiences from which one intuitively knows when to imbibe and when to refrain.” ~ Plh

Be safe and have a positive week.

~ With affection,

Penny

NOTHING!

July 31, 2014 / Penny L Howe / 24 Comments

Nothing

No air left for me to breathe.
Did atmosphere disappear with you – when you left?

There is no feeling left to feel.
Was all substance removed – when you went away?

There are no tears upon my face
Despair so intense – all senses frozen in fear,
for to contemplate the loss of you
I shall indeed, dissolve into … nothing …

The nothing you left behind.

Love is so precious, never take for granted, and if you are one of the lucky ones, cherish. If you are still searching, be at peace, love will find you, and if you were disappointed and hurt by another, take heart. Wounds heal with the passage of time to make way for a new love.

Have an excellent weekend filled to overflowing with love!

Penny.

I honor and trust you! Resetting Your Online Personal Boundaries!

September 23, 2013 / Penny L Howe / 47 Comments

Hello World, I am happy to share and …

“It is my honor to trust you,

just like a child I share with you my inner being …

This makes me vulnerable. Remember my boundaries,

as I remember yours!”

– Penny L Howe, 2013

Children remind us, through the open nature of their innocence and naivete to tread carefully on their feelings.

Since we’ve learned a few hard lessons, while growing up, about those who abuse the love and trust they’ve been given, we tend to be “tempered” and cautious about letting others in.

When connecting with others online (to have strong and safe connections), you need to set personal boundaries here, as well. Sadly, Facebook and Twitter have set very low standards of behavior. (resulting in, all too frequently, negative, rude, and insensitive written words and images, as well as invasive and intrusive behavior patterns.

There really does appear to be no control (regarding personal behavior – It has become hard to tell the children from the adults.) And if that’s not bad enough, big business has come along to take advantage of these very huge and active social online relationships, for the sole purpose of “making more money”.

Setting Personal Online Boundaries:

First – Stay “grounded”. Step away from the computer, your i-phone or other communicating devices when you do not feel good about what is happening with your social interactions. If you are feeling drained and exhausted, emotionally overwhelmed – time to break away.

Second – When you share of yourself, do so cautiously, within a place of comfortable safety, Imagine a protective shell around you, think of that space as only allowing love and positive energy within, deflecting any thing else. And then remember to maintain your energy shield.

Third – Don’t assume but do be respectful of the space of others. Remember your online friends deserve the same courtesy you want, so do respect their personal boundaries too. Be an example of a responsible online “friend”!

Fourth – With all the above in mind – be true to yourself. Be your own person. Don’t let others intimidate, or negatively influence. Find the fulcrum of balance between sharing and giving even as you keep yourself safe within your own personal online boundaries. By the way, as long as you are respectful of other’s boundaries, sharing love is just about the best thing to do … always!

Thank you for visiting me, have a great week ahead,

~ Penny

August 10, 2013 / Penny L Howe / 17 Comments

“Did you know that dewdrops are very like teardrops?

They glisten on the flesh of the petal

reminding us of the beauty of a caring heart.”

Penny L Howe, 2013

I wish you could touch me now …

July 27, 2013 / Penny L Howe / 52 Comments

I am vulnerable because of loving so pure and deeply, my walls of protection cannot keep my desire for you at bay.

and so … I wish you could touch me now. Not my heart, you’ve touched me there too deeply, it’s still bruised and bleeding. But my body still hungers for you.

I need your touch …

I desire the warmth of your caress, the closeness of your body, the physical contact of … you!

I wish you could touch me now …

… even as I understand morning light will illuminate the true reality of our relationship. I know for all your tender caring words, you would be gone and my loving soul will still be bruised … for all your promises said in the moonlight hours of sensual need and gratification. I know all this.

But the longing remains so …

I still wish you could touch me now.

I’ll always have our memories of the night time to sustain me, in daylight hours spent alone, reflecting on why you said one thing and did another. Belittling my efforts instead of supporting them, and yet still I love you. And wish you to be happy.

I am pleased to hear you are where you’ve wanted to be for so long. I am happy for you. Resigned, accepting and aware of some of the hard learned lessons of life, when one exposes one’s soul during love.

But now in these evening hours I dream of you touching me again, filling my sensual needs. Even, as reality has come full circle and comprehension of the cruelty of those who love and those who take in the guise of love, is complete.

Touch me … but let it be only the physical, my bruised soul cannot bear the mockery of a pretense at true love (yours were personal and emotional needs for yourself. I don’t believe you really thought of my needs – perhaps as an afterthought), but my body does respond to your loving body. So in that, there is truth.

I wish you could touch me. I’m prepared now for tomorrow … it hurts, but I understand. With all the love in my heart that I give so freely, I was so sure someone might love me the way I loved them in return … it seems I was mistaken!

Most definitely an unrequited love piece here. Not to worry, my next fictional piece is part two of adventure and excitement. Dry your tears and stay tuned for fun! Our fictional young lady in the piece above (p.s.- she’s the one trapped in the tunnel https://thewhyaboutthis.com/2013/07/22/alastairs-photo-fiction-the-tunnel-and-survival/ , although brokenhearted, she’s about to kick some serious a..!) More to come!

~ Penny

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Friday Fictioneers – Seeing Eternity!

July 24, 2013July 24, 2013 / Penny L Howe / 50 Comments

Photo by Douglas M. MacIlroy 2013 © maui-from mauna-kea

Seeing Eternity

They say on a clear day you can see forever. Perhaps this is so. But I think … if you’re high enough, viewing the world by looking out, over thick misty clouds stretching off into the horizon … perhaps you feel like you’re seeing eternity.

You stand there, poised above everyday problems, staring into a vast distance of possibilities and potentialities; this moment in time etched in your mind – one you’ll remember forever. The day you were high above the clouds, above doubts and fears, with the sense of belief … that perhaps you can.

It’s time for the fun and creativity of Friday Fictioneers. A group of international writers (clever and witty ones, I might add), who share their writing talent each week. Prompted by a photo they write a flash fiction (100 words approximately) for your entertainment and pleasure. Hosted by the very lovely Rochelle, this is a challenge to participate in – if you enjoy writing, and having fun! Click on the Friday Fictioneers link for more information!

If you enjoy reading, click on the links in the blue box collection.

Thanks for stopping by,

Have an excellent day and better tomorrow,

~ Penny

The definition of Love

July 15, 2013 / Penny L Howe / 32 Comments

~

Love is not defined by any one particular meaning or expression,

… although there are many.

~

And love is not defined just by the saying of the word either.

No, love is defined when we feel it inside.

Then we know it’s love,

for that feeling is unmistakable

… from anything else!

~

“Love with all your heart –

The two go well together!”

~ Penny L Howe, 2013

Beauty – in thought, word and deed

June 28, 2013 / Penny L Howe / 59 Comments

What is beautiful to you?

How do you experience beauty?

What is the sensation within you, when beholding beauty?

One of the most wonderful things about being human

is our ability to experience – the beauty of things.

Those most wonderful sights, sounds, touches, fragrances,

and tastes of our experiences, thoughts and memories.

All revolving around our perception of beauty.

“The most beautiful thing I can think of today – is TODAY!”

~

My share for the week! Please take this with you

if you’d like! No copyright restrictions, my drawing and words

Given with love, Penny

Perhaps …

June 11, 2013 / Penny L Howe / 50 Comments

Perhaps

Perhaps I wasn’t clear enough

when I slipped between the silken sheets

to nestle in the comfort of your arms (heaven).

Perhaps my sighs were too soft to be heard

as you caressed me, your strong yet gentle

hands on my body.

Perhaps I did not display my feelings strongly enough

for the arousal

your touch never failed to achieve.

Perhaps my kisses returning yours

weren’t fulsome enough in their moist firmness,

as I lost myself in the passion of the moment.

Perhaps I never let you know what I thought

… that I would die with pleasure

as with erotic playfulness you would

bring me to a blissfully sensual release.

Perhaps, as I lay in the warmth

of your embrace

in the glow of aftermath.

I didn’t whisper loud enough

“I love you”.

So perhaps you never knew

the depth of feeling

I had for you,

Perhaps

Oops there goes the ol’ creative muse sneaking out again,

hope you enjoyed. Passion is a good thing, it is a sadness

that too frequently things that were so perfect in the night

cannot resolve the problems of the day!

So true today, for many couples!

~ Penny

Holding myself perfectly still ~ a sensual silence,

January 27, 2013 / Penny L Howe / 14 Comments

… overwhelmed by an array of resonating sensations that are clearly impossible. No one can feel this way. No one!

And yet I was feeling the feelings I was feeling … engulfed in a myriad of sensuality.

All this happening around me. I knew … it must be a dream, It had to be a dream. It made no sense, it was too much to be experiencing, I must be in a dream.

Things that can’t happen in real life do happen in dreams. We all know that. In dreams all is real, the fabric of reality weaves in and out and all seems possible. So yes, this is a dream. I can accept that. These incredibly wonderful feelings, I could cry for the love of these sensations spreading joyfully through my body. An enveloping of raw and enticing purity.

Every single one of my senses alive with a kind of tingling. An almost touch of reality except, it is carried onward, much as an echo would, carrying through and repeating itself.

This is not REALITY. These sensations coming alive within me. I am not just aware ~ the very essence of who I am is vibrating and returning these sensations. It is to be feeding both upon my emotions and those of another – at the same time. This urge to taste beyond my taste buds, see beyond my vision, smell beyond my olfactory glands, to touch beyond the caress of harsh and velvet textures and to hear beyond melodic harmony of rhythm, and sound.

The acuteness of sensation spreading through and being perceived by the entirety of my being creating the most incredibly delightful feelings. And yet words do not do this justice for the sensation I experience.

An intangible emotion has attached itself to my sensual awareness. And along with it comes a tangible physicality. I have fallen in love mesmerized by the exquisite perfection of your first kiss!

Thank you,

~ Penny